dramatispersonae | Guy Cecil's Heart

I don't know what you saw, but you saw a lot of my past, didn't you?

...Yeah, it seems like it.

. . .

Well, you're unavoidably involved with that now, anyway.

Because of Selenia?

Basically.

Glad we got that cleared up.

I can't stop you from worrying about us, can I?

Anyone who isn't a complete idiot that knows what I know would worry.

Yeah, I won't deny that.

So we're really that alike...?

Not that similar in personality or what I like about you at all. But you have similar overarching causes for concern.

Like?

Hmm.

Before I get to that... What did you think of what you saw? You can ask me questions about it.

...It was really hard not to let the angry you go. The tall redheaded man was terrifying, and I wanted to attack him kind of a lot, but...

Was Mary your sister?

I appreciate you leaving him there. ...Though it does look bad, he's the one who can't get out of where he's been put.

That man is Duke Fabre.

Mary was my older sister. She was something, wasn't she?

[...hffff.]

She was really something.

...

Hod was set upon, burned by Kimlasca's forces, including the Duke's. After it was destroyed by war, with the previous Emperor's allowance, it was further erased. It had been the site of a lot of our countrys' dirty laundry, so it was convenient for it to disappear.

They forcibly used a boy's hyperresonance to break the continent down, dropping it into the core of the planet.

[Simultaneously glad and not that you figured out I just wasn't gonna ask.

I think I know where this is going but L-LETTING YOU CONTINUE WITHOUT PROMPTING.]

I was a refugee on the surface. I lived as a servant in the Duke's service with Pere, another survivor.

Vandesdelca was the boy.

... He remained in the Qliphoth with Tear for some time.

[I'm sorry I. I have no cans for actual speech.

Strangled impotent rage noise.]

... That's why. For most my life, what gave me the strength to keep going was revenge.

And Van, eventually... compounded with the fact that this was all done for the sake of the Score... went mad trying to strip it form the world.

How did you ever stop?

. . . Is that a question or an accusation?

...A question.

... Someone showed me there was something else I could live for.

What happened to Hod was despicable. But Hod is gone. And the world still existed, no matter how much we hated that fact. And it still had good people in it, living their lives, millions of them. What does making them suffer like we did do? It started happening all around us, thanks to Van's efforts, and there wasn't any satisfaction. Just pain.

I still hate the Score. That'll never go away. And I'll always remember what happened to us. But I can't hate the world so much that I can ignore that what I believed had goodness and value in the first place still exists.

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...You're a lot stronger than I am, being able to think like that. Stronger than Van too, I guess. I can't even really imagine doing anything but lashing out.

... It sounds more principled than it is.

If it wasn't for Luke, I probably would have died for Van's sake.

[his hands slowly clench.]

Van used Luke to drop a city down just like Hod was dropped, and ten thousand people died. Luke never recovered. But instead of going mad, he spent the rest of his life desperately trying to save as many people as he could, thinking it was the only way he could have value while knowing there was no undoing what he did. Even here in Aather, he spends most of his time wanting to die.

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