Hod was set upon, burned by Kimlasca's forces, including the Duke's. After it was destroyed by war, with the previous Emperor's allowance, it was further erased. It had been the site of a lot of our countrys' dirty laundry, so it was convenient for it to disappear.
They forcibly used a boy's hyperresonance to break the continent down, dropping it into the core of the planet.
... Someone showed me there was something else I could live for.
What happened to Hod was despicable. But Hod is gone. And the world still existed, no matter how much we hated that fact. And it still had good people in it, living their lives, millions of them. What does making them suffer like we did do? It started happening all around us, thanks to Van's efforts, and there wasn't any satisfaction. Just pain.
I still hate the Score. That'll never go away. And I'll always remember what happened to us. But I can't hate the world so much that I can ignore that what I believed had goodness and value in the first place still exists.
...You're a lot stronger than I am, being able to think like that. Stronger than Van too, I guess. I can't even really imagine doing anything but lashing out.
If it wasn't for Luke, I probably would have died for Van's sake.
[his hands slowly clench.]
Van used Luke to drop a city down just like Hod was dropped, and ten thousand people died. Luke never recovered. But instead of going mad, he spent the rest of his life desperately trying to save as many people as he could, thinking it was the only way he could have value while knowing there was no undoing what he did. Even here in Aather, he spends most of his time wanting to die.
[. . . Ok, Van and I are going to have a talk about disclosure, soon.]
I... I don't understand how anyone would want to die, even in that situation. I get angry at Selenia when it comes up, even though I know I can't get through to him like that and--
I don't know. Maybe it's different for me. But death is scary and painful and terrible and it's not the end, so why would anyone possibly want that? How could they?
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Before I get to that... What did you think of what you saw? You can ask me questions about it.
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Was Mary your sister?
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That man is Duke Fabre.
Mary was my older sister. She was something, wasn't she?
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She was really something.
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Hod was set upon, burned by Kimlasca's forces, including the Duke's. After it was destroyed by war, with the previous Emperor's allowance, it was further erased. It had been the site of a lot of our countrys' dirty laundry, so it was convenient for it to disappear.
They forcibly used a boy's hyperresonance to break the continent down, dropping it into the core of the planet.
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I think I know where this is going but L-LETTING YOU CONTINUE WITHOUT PROMPTING.]
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Vandesdelca was the boy.
... He remained in the Qliphoth with Tear for some time.
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And Van, eventually... compounded with the fact that this was all done for the sake of the Score... went mad trying to strip it form the world.
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What happened to Hod was despicable. But Hod is gone. And the world still existed, no matter how much we hated that fact. And it still had good people in it, living their lives, millions of them. What does making them suffer like we did do? It started happening all around us, thanks to Van's efforts, and there wasn't any satisfaction. Just pain.
I still hate the Score. That'll never go away. And I'll always remember what happened to us. But I can't hate the world so much that I can ignore that what I believed had goodness and value in the first place still exists.
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If it wasn't for Luke, I probably would have died for Van's sake.
[his hands slowly clench.]
Van used Luke to drop a city down just like Hod was dropped, and ten thousand people died. Luke never recovered. But instead of going mad, he spent the rest of his life desperately trying to save as many people as he could, thinking it was the only way he could have value while knowing there was no undoing what he did. Even here in Aather, he spends most of his time wanting to die.
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I... I don't understand how anyone would want to die, even in that situation. I get angry at Selenia when it comes up, even though I know I can't get through to him like that and--
I don't know. Maybe it's different for me. But death is scary and painful and terrible and it's not the end, so why would anyone possibly want that? How could they?
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I don't speak from personal experience. Just from being the survivor.
It's just miserable.
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When you could be living and taking what you need out of it. Giving back. Whatever you want.
... That's what I want for Luke. And for Van. It became so obvious watching them that the option for me just wasn't there anymore.
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Thank you.
This is one way that you're different then.
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I don't get what you mean.
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