؟ ([personal profile] dramatispersonae) wrote2015-03-28 03:32 pm

KUNZITE

[The Ring tilts under your feet, and with a sudden, gut-wrenching twist you're falling. A sense of how someone might have come to be in this position wraps around you as you fall; you (no, not you, but someone) could have leapt from a cliff to avoid something chasing them, and in the sick vertigo of freefall thought only that this could not possibly be as bad as what was behind them catching up--

You land with a thump. That phantom hunted feeling stays with you, leaving your hands shaky and your mouth dry.

You're in a perfectly circular and thoroughly strange workroom. The floor is made of polished rosewood and the walls are clear glass, but they're both hard to see because of how packed and active the space is - a clear brook bubbles incongruously over stones through the center, while shelves and tables crowd the walls and books and clock-or-wirework projects crowd the shelves and tables. Unfinished clockwork dummies stand here and there with a faintly gloomy air. A brand-new pottery wheel is turning slowly in the corner, its movement driven by the current of the water through the room.

Despite the cheerful clutter, the feeling of dread is still very strong here - papers have been rifled through frantically and left in heaps, and a few of the little mechanical toys have been broken, as though they were handled with too much haste and not enough care.

When you look around to identify the source of your unease, you see that the one broad uncovered section of glass shows a mirror hanging on the white wall beyond, out of reach beyond the glass. An indistinct dark shape lurks in it, and when you approach it you can hear whispers:

it's been summoned
did you say its name three times?
it's coming.
]
adropintheocean: (I would rather be ashes than dust.)

Re: discussion

[personal profile] adropintheocean 2015-03-29 12:13 am (UTC)(link)
[simultaneously fascinated and bristling like a cat; always an exciting combination]

Well, that's --
adropintheocean: (demarcations of your soul.)

Re: answer

[personal profile] adropintheocean 2015-03-29 12:39 am (UTC)(link)
[finally exhales sharply and approaches one of the clockwork dummies, examining what of its workings he can see to try and distract himself]

I -- get angry when I'm afraid. I'm frightened a lot, and it almost always feels . . . personal, and I hate that quite a bit. From -- memories, and some experiences here, I suppose I try to . . . I try to keep going and get rid of whatever's making me fearful. Because I'm angry at it.

It's a lot easier that way. If you're not good at getting angry I suppose you could try some other way of distracting yourself . . . though, by that I mean distracting yourself from being afraid, not from what's making you afraid.

. . . I've been too afraid to move or be angry, too, before. For a little while. I don't -- I wasn't alone then. I don't know what I would have done if I was. I suppose the point is in that sort of situation you ought to try and find someone to stand with you. Make sure you're not alone.

You can -- use these answers for what you need, if it will help, but -- I don't want you to let anyone else know this one came from me, all right? I think you can sense that much.
adropintheocean: (no army at my back.)

Re: discussion

[personal profile] adropintheocean 2015-03-29 12:48 am (UTC)(link)
[JUMPS, goddammit]

Must you!?

Re: discussion

[personal profile] quitplayinggames 2015-03-29 12:53 am (UTC)(link)
[THE SILENCE INDICATES NO ANSWER TO THAT, APPARENTLY :(]
adropintheocean: (call it any name you need.)

Re: answer

[personal profile] adropintheocean 2015-03-29 02:27 am (UTC)(link)
I don't -- it depends on what has to be taken down, doesn't it? If it's -- a given rule that makes no sense, you hunt down counterexamples to the rule and build another theory to overturn the popular one; if it's a person, you look for a vulnerability of theirs in order to hit back; if it's . . . your heart . . . I don't--

I can't advise you on getting angry. Just -- just try and focus on what you think you have to do instead of your fear.

To not be alone you can -- you can stop disappearing and risking yourself getting trapped in your realm again, you can stay put here for a while and talk to people; isn't inviting interaction the only way to really receive it, unless people are really annoying--? You can't make bonds without an, an anchor for them.
adropintheocean: (91)

Re: discussion

[personal profile] adropintheocean 2015-03-29 02:28 am (UTC)(link)
[SHRIEKS EMBARRASSINGLY LOUDLY and then gathers in on himself, his body language more defensive than ever]

--!
adropintheocean: (SKREEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE)

Re: answer

[personal profile] adropintheocean 2015-03-29 02:30 am (UTC)(link)
I'd find another way! It's not like -- you have one plan, it fails, that's the end! Make more than one plan, do more than one thing, exploit more than one angle! That's what plans are for. That's why you don't work alone!

[his voice cracks a little, nerves fraying]

And you stop freaking everyone out so they can think a bit more clearly to help you! I get it already!