؟ ([personal profile] dramatispersonae) wrote2011-07-15 06:41 pm

DREAM GAME ENDGAME

[ The black door slams shut and there's a hiss and a screech.

:3c but at least that is over with hm?

IF YOU DIED YOU ARE REVIVED AND IF YOU ARE HURT YOU ARE HEALED yyaaaayy ]
forthefonofit: (Uho!)

[personal profile] forthefonofit 2011-07-17 05:53 am (UTC)(link)
What made you decide that the choices you would make were ones you couldn't place your faith in, so to speak? Because they could turn out to be the incorrect choices?
unfortunateson: (nothing ever doesn't change)

[personal profile] unfortunateson 2011-07-17 05:57 am (UTC)(link)
. . . Yes. Because they so often have gone wrong. And because I have been criticized so harshly for making them. It was so easy, in the beginning. I believed I was doing my best by Ruby. And things worked out. But now . . . I feel I cannot do anything for anyone. And if I do not even try, I feel like I have failed them.
forthefonofit: (It's not bad)

[personal profile] forthefonofit 2011-07-17 06:00 am (UTC)(link)
Do you choose to live for the sake of others, then?
unfortunateson: (I must admit I can't explain)

[personal profile] unfortunateson 2011-07-17 06:09 am (UTC)(link)
. . . No . . . yes . . .

I--I cannot lack worth--that is what Major Hyuuga told me. If I do not assign myself worth, nothing I desire will answer to me any longer.

I can only--support others if I am not living entirely for their sake.
forthefonofit: (Oh the things we could do)

[personal profile] forthefonofit 2011-07-17 06:14 am (UTC)(link)
Then besides others, what is the most important to you yourself? Or is it as you said before, having a strong heart, and to hold true to yourself without wavering?
unfortunateson: (it's a cool sweet kind of place)

[personal profile] unfortunateson 2011-07-17 06:15 am (UTC)(link)
. . . Yes. It is. To stand on my own feet and face myself without flinching.
forthefonofit: (You should have that checked)

[personal profile] forthefonofit 2011-07-17 06:17 am (UTC)(link)
And what makes you flinch?
unfortunateson: (oh maybe it's not so bad)

[personal profile] unfortunateson 2011-07-17 06:20 am (UTC)(link)
. . . When I am as unsure as I have been. And when I am not--useful.
forthefonofit: (Might I make a suggestion)

[personal profile] forthefonofit 2011-07-17 06:25 am (UTC)(link)
What would make you more confident in yourself?
unfortunateson: (It was for charity!)

[personal profile] unfortunateson 2011-07-17 06:28 am (UTC)(link)
If I were not constantly doing the wrong thing . . . ! And if I--when I do the wrong thing--if I did not feel so crushed, as if I have let everyone down . . . rather than learning from it . . . I only feel depressed, and uncertain, and paralyzed.
forthefonofit: (Oh the things we could do)

[personal profile] forthefonofit 2011-07-17 06:30 am (UTC)(link)
You certainly have the time to think about it now before you make some other decision. What have you learned so far? Or rather what can you learn from your past mistakes?
unfortunateson: (I must admit I can't explain)

[personal profile] unfortunateson 2011-07-17 06:36 am (UTC)(link)
That is the thing . . . I am not sure . . .

It seems that every time I attempt to meddle in things, it goes wrong. But only more recently. I--did good in the past, for Ruby, I think. And for others. And I can't bring myself to do nothing.

I remembered more of my job, at home. I was so good at it.
forthefonofit: (Perhaps you should stay away from the ge)

[personal profile] forthefonofit 2011-07-17 06:49 am (UTC)(link)
I imagine your job in the past was vastly different than it is now. Start one-by-one rather than lumping everything together.
unfortunateson: (behind the lines behind the walls)

[personal profile] unfortunateson 2011-07-17 06:51 am (UTC)(link)
I am not always so sure it was . . .

But--perhaps.
forthefonofit: (You should have that checked)

[personal profile] forthefonofit 2011-07-17 06:55 am (UTC)(link)
It's fine to look back in the past, but occupying yourself with it on a regular basis will weigh you down. You're not the you that you were in the past. Simply arriving here has changed all that. What has the you that's right here done?
unfortunateson: (Put your poo box away.)

[personal profile] unfortunateson 2011-07-17 06:55 am (UTC)(link)
Done well or done poorly?
forthefonofit: (Hmmm)

[personal profile] forthefonofit 2011-07-17 06:59 am (UTC)(link)
They're both you. [shrugs] Even the things that you've done correct are things you learn from, not just mistakes.
unfortunateson: (I'm not doing a show about pet care!)

[personal profile] unfortunateson 2011-07-17 07:08 am (UTC)(link)
What have I done . . . what a question . . .

I have--I have killed people. And I have saved people. And I have helped them, and hurt them . . . I have done my best to support and understand them . . . and for myself . . . I have--changed so much. I've tried to find a place for myself, mostly. And I've made--many friends. As I wished, when I was young. [ha ha] But I have hurt myself all the same.
forthefonofit: (That's all well and good)

[personal profile] forthefonofit 2011-07-17 07:18 am (UTC)(link)
Was it worth it?
unfortunateson: (it's a cool sweet kind of place)

[personal profile] unfortunateson 2011-07-17 07:24 am (UTC)(link)
[without hesitation] Yes. I cannot regret all that's happened . . . I've been--happy, much of the time.
forthefonofit: (It's not bad)

[personal profile] forthefonofit 2011-07-17 07:30 am (UTC)(link)
[nods] You can't please everyone involved when you make a decision. But as long as you put one hundred percent of yourself into every important decision, even if it is the wrong one in the end, at least you did the best you could at every chance you had.

Living without regret means making decisions, taking chances, and accepting the burden that comes with them. It doesn't mean never making mistakes.
unfortunateson: (I'm not doing a show about pet care!)

[personal profile] unfortunateson 2011-07-17 07:33 am (UTC)(link)
I . . .

[sighs, leaning on harder take it like a man]

. . . I know, but I had lost sight of it . . .
forthefonofit: (Oh the things we could do)

[personal profile] forthefonofit 2011-07-17 07:38 am (UTC)(link)
[sways a little, but lets it happen, inward sigh]

If you died today, what would you regret not ever having done?
unfortunateson: (I'm more karma than bread and booze.)

[personal profile] unfortunateson 2011-07-17 07:41 am (UTC)(link)
--Everything I may have the chance to do in the future.
forthefonofit: (Perhaps you should stay away from the ge)

[personal profile] forthefonofit 2011-07-17 07:41 am (UTC)(link)
Oh to be young again.

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