I'm not going to tell you what to do. I can't, I really can't. But I can understand that you're struggling to decide . . .
If anything happens to you, I'm scared that people I care about will be hurt. Even if everything that everyone has worked for up to this point is lost, the effort and courage they have had isn't diminished. Forgotten, maybe, but not without meaning. But I can't let go of the people that I care about any easier than you can. I'm selfish, I know, but you probably realize that we all have these selfish desires that we can't help acting on . . .
So, I can't begrudge yours, either. Search for him, search to the four corners of this world. I know that you will be followed til to the very end of that search, too. The faith, hope, and connection that people have with others is incredible. You're in love, right? You probably have a very good idea what it's like. So, don't deny what your heart tells you.
Above all, I want to ask you to know your role. Not the role that Aather has given you, but the role that you chose. You wanted to save, to restore this world, so know what responsibility you have to the people that joined you in that effort . . . And if you can't accept it on your own, have faith in your own power, then it's okay to say that you're uncertain, that you may not be able to do more. It isn't wrong. It's the bravest thing you can do, to break what you thought or believed before.
Re: DECISION
If anything happens to you, I'm scared that people I care about will be hurt. Even if everything that everyone has worked for up to this point is lost, the effort and courage they have had isn't diminished. Forgotten, maybe, but not without meaning. But I can't let go of the people that I care about any easier than you can. I'm selfish, I know, but you probably realize that we all have these selfish desires that we can't help acting on . . .
So, I can't begrudge yours, either. Search for him, search to the four corners of this world. I know that you will be followed til to the very end of that search, too. The faith, hope, and connection that people have with others is incredible. You're in love, right? You probably have a very good idea what it's like. So, don't deny what your heart tells you.
Above all, I want to ask you to know your role. Not the role that Aather has given you, but the role that you chose. You wanted to save, to restore this world, so know what responsibility you have to the people that joined you in that effort . . . And if you can't accept it on your own, have faith in your own power, then it's okay to say that you're uncertain, that you may not be able to do more. It isn't wrong. It's the bravest thing you can do, to break what you thought or believed before.
I'm sorry, I'm so sorry.