♫ heliodor ♫

[dramatispersonae]

You're in a sumptuous room, with rich brocade in your team colors and fine appointments in copper and marble that should look bright and beautiful -- but everything is dusty and grey, with a furtive, abandoned air. This is a place that's been locked away for a long time. It feels as if it would be sad to linger here for long.

Fortunately (perhaps), after one good look at the room, you catch a brief, pained snatch of melody. Your vision goes dark, and you immediately find your mind somewhere else-- ♫

Comments

Re: discussion

[noeyeinteam]

[just let him fume, that's all you can do, really]

Try using the label "nightmare" and you'll get a better understanding.

Re: discussion

[semiurge]

[...you're going to be one of those adults, aren't you]

So, I'd fight to make sure it couldn't come true. I was trying to decide what to do about my powers, if I wanted those skills back or not . . . but if I can save people with them, do I even have the right to refuse to take them back?

Re: discussion

[noeyeinteam]

[probably]

That's up to you, isn't it?

But say... you did have your powers. Say you did everything in your power to try to save them and you failed. Say the scenario still ran the way that nightmare did.

What would you do?

Re: discussion

[semiurge]

I don't know. Search for them? A fall like that wouldn't kill all of my friend I think, and if the darkness was there . . . maybe it wanted them.

Re: discussion

[noeyeinteam]

[nods]

That's addressing the part with the team. What about the rest?

Re: discussion

[semiurge]

I'd die to save someone else, but never hurt someone to save myself.

[sounds super firm on this]

Re: discussion

[noeyeinteam]

Well, that part of it wasn't my fear.

My fear would have been the loss of the team. I've already lived through examples of that sort of scenario. But the rest of it has to belong to someone.

So either you really believe what you said or you're saying it because you want to believe it to be true because you have doubt.

Re: discussion

[semiurge]

It's not . . . the nightmare kind of hit it, but sideways. My powers can change reality. I'm afraid that I created my boyfriend or unconsciously changed my friends, not that I let someone die to save myself.

[hunches down, now that he's said it]

Re: discussion

[noeyeinteam]

Ah... that does explain it a bit more.

... so with that fear in mind, what do you do? Search for your friends, but how do you resolve that fear with yourself?

Re: discussion

[semiurge]

You don't. Fear makes me aware of what I could do . . . and that I need to be careful.

Re: discussion

[noeyeinteam]

. . . so basically, you would use the fear as your own tool to do the right thing rather than letting it drive you into making further mistakes.

Re: discussion

[semiurge]

Um . . . yes?

You haven't said what you would do yet?

Re: discussion

[noeyeinteam]

... I'm a pessimist.

In all honesty, I'd search for my team and would expect them to be dead. I'd blame myself, accepting it, but I'd keep moving forward in spite of knowing that whatever happened, surely my friends would preferred that I do so instead of letting that fear rule me.

Re: discussion

[semiurge]

It sounds like we already agree on some of that.