Then please leave it at that and don't take it as an excuse to say disparaging things about someone I consider a friend.

If it was anyone else, I think I would sit out and not play too. So it's not as if I don't understand that. But...because she's my friend, I know it's different. And I want to be able to tell her that I did what I could, even if it isn't everything. And if there are things that I can't do, then I won't. But I won't point the finger at her when it's my own choice.