Listen, Selenia! You have been in Aather long enough, you cannot claim ignorance of how to handle death games from inexperience! However, I am going to give you my own advice, which you can ignore or use as you see fit:

Who you are is who you are. Games are games.

If you let what these sorts of games force you to do bleed into your soul, then there is no help for you! You will be trapped in a never-ending cycle of trying to atone for sins that are not even yours!

Whatever good you hoped to achieve with this action is going to instead all but assuredly hand the sheep the victory. Carnelian and whatever teams we are forced to choose will die before the game is over. And that is your own sin, because you chose to do it and the persona did not force you.